I'm back. My mom trusts me again and so I have more privacy now. I'm so terrible you guys. I have to start all over now. My mom made me eat and made me gain. I'm so annoyed. I lost 20 pounds, and its all back now because my stupid family has been watching me like a damn hawk. I need to lost it all before school. I have like a month, I'm going to try so hard. But I need help, its been so long I barely remember any of my tricks or tips that I learned from all you guys. So please, post comments and suppoort. Tomorrow starts my first day back, and I'm going for 100 calories, and some exercise. Wish me luck, I'm scared to be backk. I don't know how I'll do ):
I don't want to describe myself, because I hate who I am. So I'm fixing it. Theres just one thing you should know; my name isn't really Lacie. But you can call me that.
"Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind t...o the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart." - One Tree Hill.
Slowly, but Steadily
Age: 17
Height: 5'2"
Current weight: 130lbs
[X] Goal one: 145lbs
[X] Goal two: 140lbs
[X] Goal three: 135lbs
[X] Goal four: 130lbs
Goal five: 125lbs
Goal six: 120lbs
Main goal: 100lbs
Cut Journal
One cut for every day that I mess up.
Cut #1 - 1.11.10
Location - right hip
Punishment for a horrible day, and a horrible week before that. No more. The more food, the more blood that falls to the floor.
Cut #2 - 1.12.10
Location - left hip
Another bad day. I ate way too much and ruined a fast. Kill me now.
Cut #3 - 1.15.10
Location - right hip
I'm so weak.
Cut #4 - 1.17.10
Location - left hip
Dinner for my brothers birthday ruined everything. I'm so weak, let tomorrow be a new beginning.
Cut #5 - 1.18.10
Location - right hip
Just a sucky day.
Cut #6 - 2.10.10
Location - left hip
Just another terrible fat day.