Discipline is remembering what you want.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


I feel like such a fraud sometimes.  Like, I already know that I'm not considered anorexic, I'm like EDNOS, because I'm not underweight yet.  But even with that, when I eat, I feel like such a fake.  I want this so bad.  I need this.  I just need to try harder.

I didn't really do so bad today.  I don't think so atleast.  I didn't have more than 500 calories, I'm almost positive.  Tomorrow I am starting a new fast.  Its called water and apples, haha.  I'm allowed two apples a day, and only water (and my usual morning zero calorie coffee).  Its a good fast for me because I loveeee apples, and they're free at schoool.  I'm really hoping it goes well.  I need to do this fast until saturday.  I need to.  I know I can do it.  I just have to control myself.

Wish me luckkk.

Starve on,


  1. water and apples! that sounds great. let me know how it goes, maybe i'll give it a go =)
    i know you can hang in there til saturday, it'll be easy, just remember to stay focused!

    good luck darling!!
    s. xo

  2. also! yeah if you're down for keeping in touch, send me an email when you get a chance, samantha_williams12@hotmail.com