Not so horrible

Today wasn't that bad.  I'm pretty sure I took in no more than 700 calories, maybe less.  I had to go out with my best friend to dinner at chillies...which was difficult but I have this menu thing on my iphone that tells me calories in meals at restaraunts and didn't end up having too many calories there.  700 is an estimate for the day, I didn't even eat any apples because I wasn't hungry earlierrrr ha.  But anyway, then I burned off about 550 on the treadmill.  So I finished the day with 150, which isn't so bad.  Tomorrow, I am allowing myself one apple in school, and water.  Thats it, nothing else.  I need to be really strong for myself, so I'm working extra hard.  I also plan to burn some calories on the treadmill again.  Or maybe I'll go outside for a run if it isnt' ridiculously cold.

I hate winter so much.  I am always cold, and I can't run outside.  I just want to run in ridiculously hot weather, like 85 degrees.  I can't wait til summer.  And I also can't wait until april when me and my best friend go to florida...I plan to run a lot there.  I wanna sweat out all my horrible calories.  I just have to remember to bring my running shorts and stuff. 

Tomorrow though if its good temperature maybe I can go outside.  You burn more calories when you're actually running, so I've been told, so I'm totally down for that.  I have to lose soon.  I've been stuck at 130 forever.  I've just been way too weak.  I need to be strong.  Really strong.

I want to look good for florida, and right now my legs aren't in such good shape ): If anybody knows any really good exercises, like other than running, that are good for thinning down legs, please helppp.  I have to wear bathing suits in less than two months!  I'm terrified.  I'm not ready for people to look at me yet.  I'm transforming, and I don't want to reveal myself that way until I'm complete.  Does anyone else feel that way?  I feel like that all the time.

I'm going to make this all better.  I know that I can.  I can do anything that I set my mind to; no one will stop me.  I've found lately that writing helps me and keeps me busy the same way that photography does.  But when I can't take pictures or something, I can write, so its convenient in that kind of situation.  Plus you've probably seen some of my weird writing on here haha.  I wrote something today but I'm not putting it on hereee.

Anyway, good luck to all of youuu, be beautifulll (:

Starve on,
Lacie.