Discipline is remembering what you want.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Oh lacie where have you been?

God I really suck.  I just can't do this right.  I need to be skinny.  I'm not eating tomorrow.  I can't eat.  I don't want to!  I hate food so much and I have been eating like a damn pig lately, and its just not funny!  Its not okay!  Why am I so horrible at this?  I have less than two months before florida.  I need to do this.  I really need to. 

I just can't eat.  Like at all.  I really need to regain my self control.  Ever since christmas break I have just been so horrible.  I lost twenty pounds, and I haven't lost anymore since then.  I suck.  Ugh.  Like, I'm so fat and disgusting.  I hate me and my life.  I'm going to be thin.  I have to be.

Starve on,

1 comment:

  1. lacie,
    i think what would really help you is if you stepped back for a moment a re-evaluated your goals. write everything down on paper, and make them all realistic and attainable. i know i get super discouraged if i decide to lose 10 lbs in two weeks and then cant do it.. so aim for 5 lbs instead, and keep working from there. the fact that you've already lost 20 lbs is amazing! you're doing much better than i am lol. so just take a step back, have a day for yourself where you can just refresh and restart. have a nice warm bath, treat yourself to a manicure, something to make you feel a bit better about yourself and to show you how beautiful you really are =) then after that, like i said, set some different goals for yourself, do your best to stay as focused as you can, and remember that all of us girls are always here to support you. whenever you feel like binging, come blog about it instead of eating! dont completely deprive yourself of food unless you're doing a fast, because then you're more likely to binge. i know you can do this lacie, i believe in you! i know you live kinda far from me, but if you ever wanted a text buddy or something to make things easier, just let me know, im game =) sorry this got kinda long, but it breaks my heart to see you so down about yourself. so keep your chin up, tomorrow is a new day!

    lots of love
    s. xo