Unbeautiful: I have to wait until I get home to post something...but I had a horrible horrible night. Starting a 50 calorie fast tomorrow.

"Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind t...o the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart." - One Tree Hill.

Cut Journal

One cut for every day that I mess up.

Cut #1 - 1.11.10
Location - right hip
Punishment for a horrible day, and a horrible week before that. No more. The more food, the more blood that falls to the floor.

Cut #2 - 1.12.10
Location - left hip
Another bad day. I ate way too much and ruined a fast. Kill me now.

Cut #3 - 1.15.10
Location - right hip
I'm so weak.

Cut #4 - 1.17.10
Location - left hip
Dinner for my brothers birthday ruined everything. I'm so weak, let tomorrow be a new beginning.

Cut #5 - 1.18.10
Location - right hip
Just a sucky day.

Cut #6 - 2.10.10
Location - left hip
Just another terrible fat day.

Unbeautiful

Friday, December 11, 2009

I have to wait until I get home to post something...but I had a horrible horrible night. Starting a 50 calorie fast tomorrow.

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