What a terrible, terrible day so far. I was planning to fast until tonight, but i didn't do so well. I ended up eating, and i know it was no more than 500 calories, maybe less...but it still makes me feel awful. I'm not planning to eat at all tonight, and then tomorrow on the new year, the first day of 2010, i will be starting my new years fast.
I'm going to fast tomorrow, Saturday, and Sunday. On Monday i'm going to eat my usual weekday breakfast, which is two egg whites with ketchup or salsa (39), because i have a track meet that afternoon which i'm running in i'm pretty sure. On Sunday night i'll post my schedule for the week, I"m not completely sure yet.
I know that i can have fun tonight with my friends without eating. We'll be baking cookies and theres gonna be brownies and chips though, so i'm going to really have to try. I'm begging you Ana to help me. Its all i need, is the will power to not put anything but water and coke zero in my mouth tonight. I know i will do well. I will not break down.
Now that i'm finally to 130 pounds, my new goal is 125. I want to be 125 by Sunday, January 10th. I am going to do really strict dieting the coming week so that i can reach that goal. I cannot wait until i am below 120, i'm going to start to feel so much better.
Anyway, wish me luck on my new years fast! I"m hoping that everything will go smoothly. No more eating today, and everything will be okay.
8 years ago